#tti-a post

[tti-anonymousstories]

Program: Bluefire Wilderness Therapy

Record form: Edited journal entry (Edited for clarity, grammar, and spelling)

Approx Date: Feb 9th, 2020

Tw/Cw: Talk of ED, Physical intimidation, Restraint, Me being kind of an ass about ED (Only in the entry never said to her.) [Note written in for story context.] This will be a thread because this story spans multiple days and even weeks. These will be broken up by one post per day/entry.

DAY ONE

‘Today has been eventful, I didn't get out of bed at first and now AX is using it against me, placing blame and- anyway’ 

 [This is how I wrote it when I was 11.]

  ‘EL was stand-in chef but when I came out she said that I had to get the spread stick even though she has been stand-in because the ‘real’ chef was back, so that's my job now. The van got stuck in the mud and we had to push it until the tow truck got here to get it out and we had to walk down the road at Pano with our packs’ 

 [Panorama was one of the sites at Bluefire, it was very flat and spread out with a long path to the dirt road we were going to]

  ‘Once I got there I was the last ‘student’ to get in (Back row, far right seat.) I planned to work on my testing.’

  [It was psych testing- but here I go into a long elaboration of where everyone sat- all you need to know is that AL sat in front of me in a middle seat.] 

 ‘AL was complaining about being in the middle seat because “I do not want to elbow anyone.” Meanwhile, JL is drawing right next to her, not elbowing anyone. She asked me to move over, likely hoping I was zoned out (this would put me in the middle seat and her on the edge) I said no! At this point I was done with her shit- thankfully seniority benefits were gone because she used it to rig the pot schedule so even when she cut her food in half she wouldn't have to clear big pot.’

 [When you didn't eat your food you cleaned big pot.]

 ‘That happened about a week ago and it was just the straw that broke the camel's back apparently because I noticed it and it opened up the conversation in group, that combined with the carrot incident and other stuff it was enough for them to stop doing seniority benefits at all. Anyhow she gets upset enough we all have to get out of the van to re-arrange seating and have a ‘Standing group’ to share ‘I feel statements’ AL was guilt-tripping some shit and ended her statement by saying “And, I'm feeling suicidal.” But after that, we did enie-meanie-miney-moe to pick who got to sit where and she got a window seat but she still wasn't happy and refused to get in the van, while everyone else sat in the van she threw a temper tantrum changing the subject to big pot from the night before and talking shit about JL, she never said her name but she was making eye contact with her through the car door the whole time. A good old tantrum if you ask me. Also during standing group, she said that we were all putting the blame on her and that it was actually my fault, and that if I had gotten out of bed on time we would be on the road right now (even though I didn't set us back at all, and she would still be throwing a tantrum on the side of the road right now.) When we finally got her in the van I was writing (not elbowing anyone mind you.) She ‘Thanked’ us for not being able to call her brother for his birthday (not that we had any say in that.) Because she “Can’t” work on her accountability letter (She was actively writing). Bull. Shit. The only good part was the drive, there was a group of cattle that crossed the road with people on horses and dogs. [Apparently this is normal in Idaho??] 

When we got to the campsite we set up our tents, but banging the poles into the ground was fun. Then we got in the van and went to some dunes and you know what she does? She acts all buddy-buddy with me! “Isn't this fun?” “We should roll down it!” I ignored her. 

‘When we got back we needed to talk about the pot schedule, so we went to this pavilion at the campsite and- Shit. Went. Down. The first question was ‘Does the chef have to clean pots if it's burnt?’ -The answer was no, no big deal there. But the next question was ‘What if multiple people don’t finish their food?’ This is where it starts to go downhill. It starts with the punishment for both food waste and not eating minimum [8oz of the given food] to clean big pot and AL says “Well, I’m cleaning big pot every night because I can’t eat three meals a day” We came to the idea of five-minute increments. She said that since she would be cleaning big pot every night she didn't want help so it was amended to ‘Five-minute increments unless one person says they don't want help’ The next question was who was to clean a utensil if they used it to clean- but AL kept going back to “I will clean big pot every night.” And EL gets fed up and tells her that it isn't relevant and AL insists that it is. EL mocks her about it and gets up to walk towards her, “No the fuck is isn't relevant.” She starts getting up in her face. “I WILL FUCK YOU UP- I WILL FUCKING FUCK YOU UP!” She gets detained and says “I'm not gonna touch her.” they let her go and she storms off.

[gorillawithautism]

apparently another kid died at trails carolina

i'm not. gonna look into that claim for my own sanity but i swear to fuck if you don't know anything about the troubled teen industry, now is the time to learn

[prettytallalien]

Tit slip😝

[tti-anonymousstories]

"i wasn’t personally in one and i don’t know if it counts, but my dad was in one of these schools for troubled kids back in the 80s. i’m grown and he only just started talking about it seriously when we watched the program on netflix. all i know is that he’s a real conservative guy now and i joke about “what happened” because he used to have a mowhawk and paint his nails and today he said they shaved his head. and i dont know if it was by force or not. earlier he said that the uniform and the forced haircuts taught him how to present himself, like it was an important value or something that he’s carried with him forever. he said one punishment was three days to a week in isolation- “just like that one”, he said when they showed one on screen- and he was down there once. didn’t say what for. but he said that one kid had severe mental health issues and had been down there for 3 months because they didn’t know how to deal with him. he said they didnt grab him in the night but a lot of kids were “kidnapped”, for lack of a better word. i’m not sure why i’m sharing this. he doesnt want it shared with my friends, but this is anonymous. not even my mom knew all this until recently. i kind of just saw this in the tag and wanted to write down what he went through, as much as i know. and that’s not much. he was there almost 3 years, had to get a ged." -Anon

[romanreigns]

[thatbitch151]

I want accurate fanfiction of my favorite characters in the Troubled Teen Industry

I want to see Deku getting yelled at for helping his friend through a panic attack

I want to see Kacchan get injured in a hold because he got angry and the staff decided to run and tackle him onto concrete floors

I want to see Todoroki get blamed for making his parents upset and told how it’s all his fault he was abused

I want to see Tsuyu get parentified by a therapist and told she has to get her shit together because “who’s going to take care of her siblings? As the eldest child that’s your job.”

I want to see Kaminari and Mina get berated for zoning out and having ADHD and being unable to focus like other people and told that there’s something severely wrong with them

I want to see staff excusing Mineta’s sexual harassment and assault because “you shouldn’t have tempted him” and because his victim “tempted him” I want to see them both be equally punished

I want to see Kirishima be put in solitary confinement for months because he joked around and the staff didn’t like that

I want to see what happened to me and what I saw happen to others happen to my favorite characters

[luckiestplartt]

guess who finished the ace attorney trilogy!

[ineedamonster]

💜🩷🍒🩷💜

Titties

I did in fact buy these pj's cause they reminded me of the pink pony club

[total-drama-takes]

hello total drama fans. i just wanted to say that if yall are bored and/or looking for something to be unnecessarily emotionally invested in, i really would recommend checking out total takes island. i know that the amount of mods in it may be a tad intimidating but u don’t need to know any pre existing lore or who everyone is or anything since they’re characters made just for this anyway

the blog @totaltakesisland has all the info from the simulator (not unlike total drama populars, but rather than full screenshots it’s mostly text and key points so it’s quick to read through!) 

the real meat of it’s on @total-drama-takes-takes-2 where mod joner literally writes out every episode based on the events of the simulator. the episodes are a couple thousand words on average and all linked on the pinned post so they’re easy to access! 

there’s a discord where we’ve been discussing the episodes (also linked on the pinned) and a takes blog for the damn takes island if you’ll believe it lmao ( @total-takes-island-takes ) to share thoughts and memes. a bunch of us have been making fanart for scenes in the show and it’s been a lotta good fun and we aren’t even halfway through!! so it’s not too late to join!!

joner has worked- and is working- so, so hard on this, like i cannot stress enough that writing multiple thousand words today is no small task and they’re doing such a great job. and for free!! so really, if you’re at all interested please check it out because its so much fun it’s like its own sub-fandom and honestly i just wanna talk about shalovin with yall

[tti-anonymousstories]

you misspelled anonymous in your url btw. also, moonridge! I went to kolob, moonridge’s sister school for older teens. mind if I ask when you were there? I might know you. if you don’t want to say, no worries, i get it. and if you’d prefer, I could DM you and we could talk there. hope you’re doing alright <3

Ah, thank you for letting me know- i don't know if I can correct that though :( I was at mra April 2020 to May 2022! i remember about once a year we would go to Kolob for an activity of come kind.

[shedontlovehuhself]

Idk what was going on or said during this moment, but he's very babygirl.

from here

[seawitchkaraoke]

I really wanna see the ultimate False Supremacy team sometime with False herself of course, Hbomb who predicted her being cracked at dodgebolt way back before she ever got into one, Scott who first coined the phrase False Supremacy during mcc 9 and of course Ren the original false hypeman

I just think it would be a vibe and also I really miss False + Ren

[requiemyourtouch]

My tities are stiff (again) without any reason

What should I do?

Tell me in the asks mommy <3

[total-drama-takes-takes-2]

the elimination order and winners for tta have been finalized, outlines of every challenge are in the works and Ive got a part of episode 1 drafted up.

kitty and patrick are the aftermath hosts for this season. bonnie and caesar are the campfire couple

[queermoths]

under cut im vaguely working through some feelings about my experience with the troubled teen industry, no specific tw but still putting it under the cut cause tti in and of itself needs a tw

realizing more and more of what happened to me in the tti. its been just under four years since i left it and still processing it. putting more puzzle pieces together, still unlearning what they trained me to believe. might write about it, but i probably wont share anything i write (for now)

[ineedamonster]

Isn't my new bra so cute!!!! 🥰

I think I might need a bigger size next time though 😳